Escape (into Fantasy)

Every time it happened
I'd escape into fantasy
Forget about my body
And set my mind free
 
When my brother used me,
I'd ignore his lips and hands
Disconnect from my body
And fly to distant lands
 
Because as long as I was Lessa,
I didn't have to feel the shame.
As long as I was Sara,
I could imagine away the pain.
 
As long as I was Lucy,
I'd have tea and cakes and music
As long as I was Leia,
I had the force and I could use it.
 
And when a date turned ugly,
I did the same thing too
Let my mind escape my body
In the only way I knew

Yes, this used to be the way

I saved my life and sanity
And yet I feel guilty
For my escapes into fantasy
 
I should've fought back
I should've run away
I should've told someone
I never should've let my body stay
 

 * Author's note: the characters referenced are: Lessa, from Anne McCaffrey's Dragonriders of Pern books; Sara, from Frances Hodgeson Burnett's A Little Princess; Lucy, from C.S. Lewis's The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe; and Princess Leia of George Lucas's Star Wars.